Living a healthy life is not so easy. There are a lot of things to take care of and these habits need to stay with us for life. That is very very difficult. I have been trying to make healthy habits but, they do not stick with me. I just do not have the will power to exercise regularly, eat properly and take care of myself. When it comes to my son or DH, I am so cautious and careful. DH always tells me to put myself first and take required rest when ever needed. I do not listen to him most of the times even though I know he is right. Now, all this carelessness is taking a toll on me. I have been feeling very weak for the past few weeks. I do not feel like cooking, cleaning.. nothing. All I want to do is just sleep. I feel sleep deprived even after 8 hours sleep at night. So, I went to the doctor and she had some blood tests done to check for anemia, blood glucose, thyroid problems and cholesterol. I am still waiting for the results.
I know that I am at high risk for both diabetes and high cholesterol levels. My mom has had diabetes for a long time and my dad has both high blood glucose and high cholesterol levels. My dad has undergone a bypass surgery long back. So, I am definitely at high risk. Am I doing anything to prevent it from happening to me?? NO! It is scary.
On the weekend, I thought a lot about all this and the very thought that I am not doing anything scared me. When I was pregnant, I was at my healthiest. I ate properly, drank the recommended 3 cups of milk, ate my fruits and took my prenatal vitamins every single day. The minute I delivered, I stopped caring about myself. When Sarath started eating solid foods, I gave him all the veggies and fruits every single day but never remembered or cared to eat them myself. Now, I can vouch that he has better food habits than me.
But, I know I need to change. I need to make better habits to feel good, be a good mom and stay healthy and in shape. So, I decided to start changing things around the house. DH is going to help me with all of this. It is not going to be easy, that I know. I am willing to put myself through it for my son. I decided that Sarath is going to be my motivating factor. I am going to remind myself everyday that:
1. I need to be healthy to raise a healthy well behaved child. So, I need to take care of myself.
2. I am going to put myself first and relax when needed to.
Eating right is the easier part. Exercise is the major thing. I can always find a very good excuse not to exercise. I am an expert at this. Exercising everyday is going to be the most challenging thing for me. But, I am going to do it. I look at my mom and mother-in-law who are in their fifties and are healthier than me. I am happy for them. But, I need to be healthier than them. I am still in my thirties. They are going to be my motivation for exercising. DH and me have started the 30 day shred again – for the third time. We have lots of fun doing it and encourage each other. Hopefully, we will keep doing it. I am planning to join a gym and go there at least 3 times a week. If I look at other people exercising, I’ll probably get motivated too. Hopefully I will put all my plans into practice. Please wish me Good Luck!