… feels content! I am the type of person who would crib about anything minor that does not go according my plans. So, when things just seem to fall in place and I am feeling happy, I thought I should write it down here. Although, I am afraid that if I write down everything that is making me happy, I might just jinx it. Well, I am taking a chance and what ever happens will happen.
So, this week, twice I have felt so grateful for having a husband like S. On Tuesday, I woke up in the morning as usual but, did not feel like doing anything. I had to cook, pack lunch dabbas, finish my pending work etc.. When I complained to S saying that I did not get enough sleep, he told me to take rest and he would take care of packing dabbas. I was not ready to leave everything to him because I thought he doesn’t know what to pack or figure out everything in time and a million other reasons I could tell myself. He took one look at me and said “If you trust me, and leave it to me, I will do it. If you don’t trust me, I will never be able to help you”. So, I trusted him. Instead of sleeping again, I sat down to finish some of my work. He unloaded the dishwasher, made breakfast, packed the dabba’s with Sarath’s help and they left on time. It felt wonderful to be able to work for more than hour in the morning.
Last night Sanjay was up with cough and so was I trying to calm him. So, when I woke up this morning, I was feeling so sleepy and had a bad headache. I told Sarath that I am not feeling well and will not be able to help with everything. He then went and did everything himself without a reminder from me. He was ready on time and even helped S a little bit. S on the other hand, made some lunch for me and Sanjay (who is home today), made sure Sarath had everything for school, gave him breakfast and they both left with 5 min to spare. I am still sleepy like hell, but, I feel much better knowing that I don’t even have to cook and lunch is ready when we want it 🙂
When we had to move apartments in August, I was initially not happy. Later, we started looking for independent houses. But, finally we settled with a town home because we thought if we moved here, Sarath wouldn’t have to change schools and also hoping there would be other kids from Sarath’s school and he will have some friends to play with. I am just so glad about this decision. There are 4 other kids his age who are in the same grade and one of them lives 4 houses away from us. These kids have fun in the evening almost everyday. I have also made some mom friends and it is good to have some one to talk to and know that they are facing the same challenges as me. One of the other mom’s and me have started going for a walk everyday. It feels so good to have a walking partner. We have been going for only 3 weeks now but, it just feels so good. We walk for almost 2.5 miles everyday and we talk about the kids, hobbies, our families and everything in between. That is the time I look forward to everyday. There are days I just don’t feel like getting out the door. But, the fact that I have made a commitment to go with her, makes me go.
The biggest thing that is making me happy now is my freelance career. As I mentioned in my previous post, I am really happy to have made the decision to freelance instead of a regular job. The only drawback is that I do not have a regular monthly income. All the other things that I am able to do now, makes having a regular income low priority for me. I feel less stressed in the mornings. I have more time for the kids. Since, I know what is coming my way and how I can manage my time, I am able to spend all evenings with the kids without having to worry about the pending work. Yes, I do worry about it sometime but, I guess that is a given in any type of work situation. Today, since Sanjay is not feeling well, he could just stay home and we did not have to figure out who will be able to stay home – myself or S. S did go early today and if needed, I can always ask him to come home to take care of the kids while I work in the evening. As long as I deliver on the time promised, I am free to work when ever I want to.
Last weekend, I made blueberry muffins – and lots of them (the picture below only shows half). They came out super tasty. S took some for his office and the rest were gone in two days!
Last year on Oct 2nd, my grandfather passed away. I am sure he is smiling today along with my grandmother knowing that I am happy. I miss you both!!